Do I really know what I am doing? Now, I am trying to prepare my comprehension exam in Taiwan; however, I am in Taiwan. Yes, it is so strange, and I totally understand. Does anyone know I am really a loser? Even I want to cry, I have no tear. For me, studying abroad is a great aim to practice and to know who I am? It is obviously a connection to build myself stronger than before. Then I might gain some resource and ability to help whom really need to help. Now, I just can hang out with my roommate while I almost finish my readings or papers. And I need to calculate every dollar that I spend, because I do not have any income. I have tried to quit smoke to save money, but I do not even care my health condition. All I want to do is for a dream to help people, but I now even cannot help my family or anyone. I promise myself if I will not gat any chance to enter the Ph D program in UK or US. I will state store my dream in a deep place. Because while I am doing something waste my time, I am waste my family their time, their resource as well.
Thank you giving me chance to know how disgusting the academic is, and how tiny I am? Tomorrow, even I never wake up again. The world will still work, and why I need to present as I am the One, the Neo?
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